Friday, May 28, 2010

Another "opportunity" to have faith

It's not a secret that things have been tough around here. Hubby got laid off in January, and had been laid off up until May 4th. He worked 4 days, and was laid off again. Off work for two more weeks, started a job he actually really enjoyed (for the first time in a couple years) on Monday, May 24 and just now is getting laid off again. We were told going in that this job would be for 3 or 4 weeks, then he would "sit" for 3 or 4 weeks while the walls of the building were put up and the foundation finished, and then he'd be called back to work for another 5 or 6 months. Well, the company misjudged the work schedule when they called the Union for workers. And instead of sitting like they were told, all the guys are being laid off. So it's back to the bottom of the list at the Union again.

I know God has a plan. I know He is in control. I also know that He has been faithful this entire time. But yet I am still finding it difficult to not let that bit of panic, fear, and doubt creep in. It doesn't help that I am standing alone in my faith in God right now. Husband is at the lowest point I've ever seen in his walk with the Lord. He is really wrestling with Him. Every obstacle that pops up in my husbands mind is God showing us He doesn't care, isn't as "all powerful" as he supposedly is, or that he just doesn't listen to prayers and definitely doesn't answer them.
I am trying with all my might to cling to the Truth and the promises of the Lord, and remember He is in control and stand firm in Him. I am not only fighting my own battles with fear and panic, I am fighting battles with my husbands fear and doubt and lack of faith. That takes more strength than I have on my own. So I was looking for some verses today for me to "cling" to when the fear of more unemployment starts to creep in. I thought I'd share them here.......

"The name of the LORD is a strong tower; the righteous run to it and are safe." Proverbs 18:10

“I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go…” Genesis 28:15

"For I am the Lord your God, who takes hold of your right hand, and says to you, "Do not fear, I will help you."" (Isaiah 41:13)

"We know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." Romans 5:3-5

"Though I have fallen, I will rise. Though I sit in darkness, the Lord will be my light." Micah 7:8

"The Sovereign Lord is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to go on the heights." Habakkuk 3:19

"The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing." Zephaniah 3:17

"Praise God, who did not ignore my prayer or withdraw his unfailing love from me" Psalm 66:20

"I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For you have been my refuge, a strong tower against the foe." Psalm 61:2-3

"The one who calls you is faithful and he will do it." 1 Thess. 5:24



Lara said...

Wow, how tough this must be for your family. Your faith is inspiring. I had that thought yesterday: I have this great hope in Christ, but if things weren't going so well, would my faith be just as strong? Would I still know and believe the gospel if everything fell apart? I pray for you, dear sister, that our Jesus wraps your family in his arms.

Erica said...

Oh wow. So tough. My husband was laid off in the middle of our first adoption, it was incredibly tough but one of the most growing times in our lives. Praying for you and your family.