Thursday, March 25, 2010

Crazy Love Party

I have sat here for well over two hours deciding if I was even going to write this post. There are a million things running through my mind, and the two biggest are "I have no problem with people I don't know learning about our circumstances, but I am embarrassed for the people I do know to learn of them". And the second biggest thing in my mind is "why do I think I would even *think* to join this Crazy Love Party when there are SO MANY MORE people who either need help worse, or are trying to do amazing things in the name of the Lord".

Watching my children run and play and laugh (and even tell me I was ruining their lives while they were time out...LOL), and listening to my husband curse at his homework are what got me to decide to write it. There is nothing I won't do for those I love, so here is our current story.

Hubby is still laid off. He is a Union member in his 4th year of apprenticeship training. I have been job hunting, and he has been looking for side jobs while he waits for his name to be called off the list at the union. The fact of the matter is...we are out of money. We pay only the bills that are involved directly with living in this house and are at the point where services are at risk of getting shut off. Everything else is just piling up. As the end of the month approaches, our car payment gets later and later, and rent is looming over our heads like a dark cloud.

Due to finances, we could no longer afford the gas money to drive to our old church, but we found a fabulous church (Lebanon Foursquare) just minutes from our home a couple weeks ago. We have only been twice, but already it feels like home. I am excited to see how I can start to help with the church. Speaking of church, yes, we still continue to tithe. I truly believe it was the reason we were able to survive 8 months of unemployment last year. We continue to be faithful to God, knowing He is always faithful.

I have gone to all the resources available here in town for help with rent this month (Community Services, Salvation Army, etc...), and the rest is up to the good Lord. If we are unable to come up with rent, we will give up this house and move in with hubbys mother in WA, where she would welcome us with loving arms. The only reason we are so desperate to stay right here is that if we move, then hubby loses the last 4 years of hard work he has put into his apprenticeship program because he can't transfer. We realize that if it comes to that, it is all part of God's plan for our lives. In the mean time, we continue to faithfully pray that hubby gets called out to work soon so we don't have to do this again next month and just wait to see what God has in store for us.


I would love for people to take a look around my blog, get a feel for my heart and my family. Even take a peek at my children's blog if you'd like! My Children My Heart