Friday, October 10, 2008

Aggghhhhhh!!!!

OMG! I am in total overload this Fabulous Friday Morning! Okay, well actually, YESTERDAY was overload, today I have coped and have a "To Do" list so I feel back in control again.

Tuesday was payday from the apartment complex. (My first paycheck in 3 years!!!!) Very Happy But we spent 5 hours that evening paying bills, getting Lenny new work boots, Isaac his new shoes, and $10 worth of Halloween decorations at the dollar store. And all day long on Tuesday I had work at the complex to do. Cleaning, gardening, etc...

Wednesday Lenny only worked half a day...as soon as I picked him up from work we went and got him a haircut then came home. We had a TON of work at the complex to do. I had lots of little stuff to take care of and DH had to start repairs on apartment 10, which is the one that had the fire in the kitchen. (I just have to say that lots of little stuff is still hard because the children "help" me. )

We spent all day yesterday at apartment 56 (not that you care the number...it's just easier for me to explain that way... Wink ) Just the bathroom took me almost two hours. The couple taking that apartment moves in tomorrow. (And I still need to head over in a little bit and touch up the paint and mop the kitchen floor...then it's done! )

As soon as the children were no longer going to cooperate "helping mommy clean" 56, we packed up to go grocery shopping and pay more bills. By the time we got home, we unloaded groceries and I finished dinner. And got the groceries put away.

My children, my husband, and my dog are a full time job. So since I have been so busy this week I have not really had a chance to do that much cleaning up after them. By the time last night came along I couldn't take anymore. You could not see my table top at all,
my kitchen counters were nowhere to be seen, the dishwasher was full of clean dishes and the sinks were both full of dirty dishes. There were dog toys and children toys everywhere. My dirty laundry is overflowing, and I still have a load of clean clothes that need folded and put away. Oh, in the middle of the week sometime the children took all of their clothes out of their dresser so I just scooped them up and they are on top of the dresser.

I was so bothered by the messiness of the house (I honestly can NOT handle my house messy) plus the fact that I still have to paint and mop 56 that I had two different panic attacks last night. One was tiny and I kept going through it. One I actually had to sit down and force myself to take deep breaths so I could get my heart to stop racing and stop being dizzy. I think the biggest part of it is that my house was so overwhelmingly dirty in my mind that I could barely decide where to start. And after an hour I felt like it looked like I hadn't even made progress.

Also I was stressing because I wanted to have 56 ready for the couple to look at today when they sign paperwork, so I was trying to get the house clean and children in bed so I could sneak over to 56 to finish it in the middle of the night by myself. However Diana told me they will see it on Saturday when they move in, and I don't need to stress because she can't believe I have gotten that apartment cleaned and turned as fast as I did. (They didn't even move out until Monday).

Anyway.....this was long and pointless and now I feel so silly that I was so overwhelmed last night. Embarassed Okay then..... Wink Well, today by 9AM I will pack up the kids and head back over to 56 to finish. They I have some gardening in the complex to do. Then I will come home, start my laundry, finish cleaning (I couldn't TRULY clean last night cuz all my cleaning stuff is in 56), research which pumpkin patch/corn maze to take the children to this weekend and then HOPEFULLY have time to Photoshop since it relaxes me. Oh, and MIL, SIL, and two neices are coming to visit for the night on Sunday.

2 Comments:

We 3 Peas said...

*hugs* You are a super woman!!

ame said...

uhh you sound busy!