This past week has been kind of crazy. Friday Lenny called from work at 9:30am and says to get the kids packed for the weekend at the beach and he will home to pick us up in 20 minutes. Have you ever tried to feed children and get packed for a weekend plus get the children ready to leave the house in 20 minutes?? Well if you have and you can do it...I admire you!! I worked my tail off and it still took 45 minutes. :)
Anyway, we were originally just going to head to Lincoln City, but as we were driving down the road at the last minute Lenny decides to head to the Sea Lion Caves. We stopped in Florence at the beach, went to have some lunch, headed to the Caves, and then came back to Florence and found a hotel with a pool for the evening. The next morning we headed to Lincoln City where we met Lenny's mom and two neices. We stayed there one more night and we all headed back here on Sunday.
Monday was Lenny and I's anniversary. Three years. And I spent the evening at home, with Doris, Monea, Kayla, and a projectile vomiting set of toddlers. Where was my husband? Oh that would be hanging out with his friends. He said since he took us away for the weekend that should count and I shouldn't be ungrateful. Next time he won't take me anywhere. Is it just me... or does the day matter??? Was I being stupid for still thinking the actual anniversary would of been nice to spend together? Anyway.
The children were sick all night Monday and Tuesday. NOT FUN!!! Then on Wednesday, Lenny got sick. They sent him home from work that morning. He was still sick yesterday and this morning. I got sick yesterday, and have been sick since. However, to time to rest or sleep or recoup when I have everyone else to take care of. :)
So, this past week has just been a little hectic. Thankfully Lenny's mom and nieces have been here. They have been a huge help with the children. And it's been nice to have company. If they wouldn't of been here with me on Monday I probably would of strangled my husband. :)
I am hoping this next week settles down a little bit.
Friday, June 27, 2008
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Tagged!!!
If you are reading this, and you have a blog, you've been tagged. Because inquiring minds want to know, you MUST repost with your OWN answers!
If you HAD to spend $1,000 on YOURSELF, how would you spend it? clothes, hair, nails. tanning, gas money to visit my BFF
Favorite thing about your house? it's a nice location
Least favorite thing about your house? it's an apartment not a house
What job would you pay NOT to have? anything at all that has to do with snakes
If you could be a fly on the wall, where? I can't tell you that...then it wont' be secret
Favorite food: carne asada
Quirks: soo many of them...dishwasher loading, the way the TP unrolls, things being in a line, making lists for everything....i could go on forever
How would the person who loves you most describe you in ten words or less?
Mommy
Any regrets in life? too many
Favorite Charity/Cause? Abused children or Juvenile Diabetes
Favorite Blog recently? Dont' Read This
Something you can’t get enough of? My children
Worst job you have ever had? Brown Bag Cafe working for a sexist pig who told me to keep my mouth shut and just be the pretty face he hired me to be
Guilty Pleasures? reading and computer time
Got any confessions? Jazzie Mae still uses a bottle to fall asleep at night
When are you most relaxed? When I am rested
One thing you are bad at? only one????
One thing you’re good at? Multitasking
If you could change something about your circumstances, what? Another thing I regretfully can't post here
Who would you like to meet someday? My children's spouses
Who is your real life hero? any single parents who raise fabulous children
What can you not live without? my children
Do you agree or disagree with the recent article that reported that blogs are authored by narcissists? I completely disagree
If you HAD to spend $1,000 on YOURSELF, how would you spend it? clothes, hair, nails. tanning, gas money to visit my BFF
Favorite thing about your house? it's a nice location
Least favorite thing about your house? it's an apartment not a house
What job would you pay NOT to have? anything at all that has to do with snakes
If you could be a fly on the wall, where? I can't tell you that...then it wont' be secret
Favorite food: carne asada
Quirks: soo many of them...dishwasher loading, the way the TP unrolls, things being in a line, making lists for everything....i could go on forever
How would the person who loves you most describe you in ten words or less?
Mommy
Any regrets in life? too many
Favorite Charity/Cause? Abused children or Juvenile Diabetes
Favorite Blog recently? Dont' Read This
Something you can’t get enough of? My children
Worst job you have ever had? Brown Bag Cafe working for a sexist pig who told me to keep my mouth shut and just be the pretty face he hired me to be
Guilty Pleasures? reading and computer time
Got any confessions? Jazzie Mae still uses a bottle to fall asleep at night
When are you most relaxed? When I am rested
One thing you are bad at? only one????
One thing you’re good at? Multitasking
If you could change something about your circumstances, what? Another thing I regretfully can't post here
Who would you like to meet someday? My children's spouses
Who is your real life hero? any single parents who raise fabulous children
What can you not live without? my children
Do you agree or disagree with the recent article that reported that blogs are authored by narcissists? I completely disagree
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Brain Rot
I am actively combating my brain rot! My wonderful sister in law keeps sending good books my way. So between Sodoku puzzles, crossword puzzles, learning about random things, and good books...I feel like my brain is being put to better use.
In the last couple weeks I have read "Into the Wild"...a true story about a young man venturing off into the Alaskan wilderness, and "The Lovely Bones". I must say that though the first book was good, the latter has to be one of my favorite reads in quite awhile. It is about a young girl of 14 who is murdered. She is telling her story from up in Heaven, where she is watching down on her family and friends. It is a gruesome topic as far as child murder, but the book was so well written that I could not put it down.
Currently I just started a new book, a memoir by the author of The Lovely Bones, about her rape and healing process afterward. I will let you know how it is.
In the last couple weeks I have read "Into the Wild"...a true story about a young man venturing off into the Alaskan wilderness, and "The Lovely Bones". I must say that though the first book was good, the latter has to be one of my favorite reads in quite awhile. It is about a young girl of 14 who is murdered. She is telling her story from up in Heaven, where she is watching down on her family and friends. It is a gruesome topic as far as child murder, but the book was so well written that I could not put it down.
Currently I just started a new book, a memoir by the author of The Lovely Bones, about her rape and healing process afterward. I will let you know how it is.
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Nothing exciting...
I know I haven't written in a couple days...but there hasn't been too much exciting going on. Whether finally turned nice yesterday, so until then we have been kind of stuck here in the apartment.
The Fourth of July weekend there is a family reunion in Paradise California. We are supposed to be making a road trip down there to go to it. We didn't go to last years reunion, because Isaac was still practically a newborn, plus financially it was going to be too much of a stretch. There is a pretty big wildfire right outside of Paradise, though, so we are watching that to see if it affects plans or not.
This weekend is Father's Day Weekend. Tomorrow we will go to church and grill some ShishKabobs. Not too exciting, but plenty exciting for us. Lenny is working 6 days a week right now. His work almost NEVER offers overtime, so we are trying to take advantage of the fact that they are offering it currently. It will help pay for the road trip, especially with gas prices!
That's about it for now. Excitement galore in Salem Oregon!!! :)
The Fourth of July weekend there is a family reunion in Paradise California. We are supposed to be making a road trip down there to go to it. We didn't go to last years reunion, because Isaac was still practically a newborn, plus financially it was going to be too much of a stretch. There is a pretty big wildfire right outside of Paradise, though, so we are watching that to see if it affects plans or not.
This weekend is Father's Day Weekend. Tomorrow we will go to church and grill some ShishKabobs. Not too exciting, but plenty exciting for us. Lenny is working 6 days a week right now. His work almost NEVER offers overtime, so we are trying to take advantage of the fact that they are offering it currently. It will help pay for the road trip, especially with gas prices!
That's about it for now. Excitement galore in Salem Oregon!!! :)
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Is it selfish????
Is it selfish to want to hear an "I appreciate you" or "I appreciate everything you have done" or "Thank you" at least once??
I do alot of things for this family. Do I work? Nope. Not outside of the home. But I do ALOT. I hardly ever have that much "spare" time. In the AM before the kids wake up, a minute or two here and there throughout the day, and then after the kids go to bed. And things don't get easier when hubby gets home. I actually have MORE work to do then. And it's okay. I do what I do because I like to. I was always a perfectionist workaholic before the children, so now I put the extra energy into my home life. And I like it. I don't do it for the recognition. I do it because I love my children and husband. But for some reason, after 5 years of doing whatever it takes, a "Thank You" or "I appreciate you" would sure make me feel like everything I do isn't for nothing.
I gave up a career I had had for 8 years for my relationship. While job hunting after I quit that job, I turned down an offer to be a General Manager for a restaurant in HAWAII, I passed on another General Manager position because the Training would of sent me to Italy for 8 weeks. Another GM position I turned down because the training was for 6 months split between Florida and Arizona. And that was just to keep things going in the relationship in the earlier days. Since the children, I have given up the little stuff like time to myself, splurges like a haircut or a tanning session, Starbucks coffee, even a chance to sit down to eat a meal uninterrupted. I have asked my husband to give up nothing. He still continues to get what he wants when he wants it. And I let him. I help make sure he gets it. I am not even asking anything to change. I would just LOVE to hear a "Thank You".
Selfish of me, I know. And it even sounds ungrateful on my part. But I guess I am only human...
I do alot of things for this family. Do I work? Nope. Not outside of the home. But I do ALOT. I hardly ever have that much "spare" time. In the AM before the kids wake up, a minute or two here and there throughout the day, and then after the kids go to bed. And things don't get easier when hubby gets home. I actually have MORE work to do then. And it's okay. I do what I do because I like to. I was always a perfectionist workaholic before the children, so now I put the extra energy into my home life. And I like it. I don't do it for the recognition. I do it because I love my children and husband. But for some reason, after 5 years of doing whatever it takes, a "Thank You" or "I appreciate you" would sure make me feel like everything I do isn't for nothing.
I gave up a career I had had for 8 years for my relationship. While job hunting after I quit that job, I turned down an offer to be a General Manager for a restaurant in HAWAII, I passed on another General Manager position because the Training would of sent me to Italy for 8 weeks. Another GM position I turned down because the training was for 6 months split between Florida and Arizona. And that was just to keep things going in the relationship in the earlier days. Since the children, I have given up the little stuff like time to myself, splurges like a haircut or a tanning session, Starbucks coffee, even a chance to sit down to eat a meal uninterrupted. I have asked my husband to give up nothing. He still continues to get what he wants when he wants it. And I let him. I help make sure he gets it. I am not even asking anything to change. I would just LOVE to hear a "Thank You".
Selfish of me, I know. And it even sounds ungrateful on my part. But I guess I am only human...
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Tidbits of advice....
Insanity is the act of doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
In any given situation, you basically have three choices... Change it, accept it, or leave it.
In any given situation, you basically have three choices... Change it, accept it, or leave it.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Today is the day!!!
My "baby" is ONE!! I can't believe how fast the time has flown. It seems like yesterday that I was amazed over his first smile, and celebrating rolling over. I remember I had these SAME feelings on Jazmine's birthday, too. It's funny because they say that these milestones are the hardest with your first child and your last. Well, all I have is my first and last. Unless something MONUMENTAL changes in my life....Isaac is my last little baby! Besides, I have two of the most wonderful, loving, well natured children in the world. Why push my luck? ;)
We have visitors coming in tonight. Lenny's mom, his sister Kristi, and his two nieces. I am excited for the company, but of course I have been cleaning all day!! Not that there is really anything that NEEDS cleaned. I am just me! And since today is Isaac's birthday, and we will have so many visitors, I am decided to do an impromptu party. I already had been planning on a party next month, but what harm can a second party do??
On a side note, I have been feeling like my brain is rotting away lately. Back when I was working, my brain was always challenged. I love staying home with the kids, but some days I do feel under stimulated. To remedy feeling this way I have been doing things like watching CNN and all the political coverage, doing Sodoku puzzles from the time the kids go to bed until I go to bed, making a home budgeting program in Excel, even though I can download a million free ones any time I want. I was even trying to help our neighbor find the discrepancies in her books for the apt complex. Whatever I can do. Its helping me feel a little better. I don't feel as much like my brain has rotted!
We have visitors coming in tonight. Lenny's mom, his sister Kristi, and his two nieces. I am excited for the company, but of course I have been cleaning all day!! Not that there is really anything that NEEDS cleaned. I am just me! And since today is Isaac's birthday, and we will have so many visitors, I am decided to do an impromptu party. I already had been planning on a party next month, but what harm can a second party do??
On a side note, I have been feeling like my brain is rotting away lately. Back when I was working, my brain was always challenged. I love staying home with the kids, but some days I do feel under stimulated. To remedy feeling this way I have been doing things like watching CNN and all the political coverage, doing Sodoku puzzles from the time the kids go to bed until I go to bed, making a home budgeting program in Excel, even though I can download a million free ones any time I want. I was even trying to help our neighbor find the discrepancies in her books for the apt complex. Whatever I can do. Its helping me feel a little better. I don't feel as much like my brain has rotted!
Monday, May 19, 2008
I hate my body
I am so over it!! I hate it. I cry almost every day!! And this past weekend was REALLY bad!! It was 95-100 degrees out for the last 4 days. And all I had that fit me was jeans and a couple t-shirts. Now, I doubt I would of worn shorts in public being this fat, but at least around the house I could of. But nope. I have nothing that fits for summer clothes. Another reminder that I am a big huge fat slob!!!!
I have been living on caffeine, all natural diet pills and salad and veggies. I exercise (only in the apartment) everyday. I hardly every sit down hoping that whatever I do will burn an extra calorie or two. (Even now I am standing typing this stepping side to side to keep moving.) I am at the point where I honestly don't know what else to do. I REFUSE to accept looking like this. I hate myself right now. I hate looking in the mirror. Being fat and ugly is ruining my mood lately. And I am normally in a good mood. But it's getting to me. I don't know how much longer I can keep a smile on my face or just make jokes or PRETEND I am okay with how I look. I am not okay with it.
And I am obsessed with the scale. I step on it probably 5 times a day. And it NEVER changes. Not up, not down....just stays the same. Its so hard to keep the motivation to keep dieting and exercising when there is not a single pound lost in return. But I keep doing it. To keep failing. But I keep doing it anyway.
I am not asking to be a size zero again. I am not. I just want to feel comfortable in my own skin, not be embarrassed to go out in public, and not hate myself.
I have been living on caffeine, all natural diet pills and salad and veggies. I exercise (only in the apartment) everyday. I hardly every sit down hoping that whatever I do will burn an extra calorie or two. (Even now I am standing typing this stepping side to side to keep moving.) I am at the point where I honestly don't know what else to do. I REFUSE to accept looking like this. I hate myself right now. I hate looking in the mirror. Being fat and ugly is ruining my mood lately. And I am normally in a good mood. But it's getting to me. I don't know how much longer I can keep a smile on my face or just make jokes or PRETEND I am okay with how I look. I am not okay with it.
And I am obsessed with the scale. I step on it probably 5 times a day. And it NEVER changes. Not up, not down....just stays the same. Its so hard to keep the motivation to keep dieting and exercising when there is not a single pound lost in return. But I keep doing it. To keep failing. But I keep doing it anyway.
I am not asking to be a size zero again. I am not. I just want to feel comfortable in my own skin, not be embarrassed to go out in public, and not hate myself.
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Go Whitney!!!!
So yes, I admit it, I watch America's Next Top Model. It's one of those shows where I like to watch it when I can, but I don't go out of my way to watch it like I do for Grey's Anatomy. Last night, though, I did make an extra effort because it was the season finale. And I have to say "Way to Go" to the winner Whitney. She is the first "Full Figured" model to make it into the final, yet alone to actually win. I was very excited to see her win!!!
Prior to getting pregnant with Jazmine was really the first time I was finally comfortable with my body. But the sad part is I barely broke the scales at 100 lbs. Post pregnancy body was another hurdle to overcome, but just about the time I got pregnant with Isaac I was starting to get comfortable with how I looked again. Now, the post Isaac pregnancy body I am so disgusted with I can barely look in the mirror long enough to straighten my hair or put makeup on for church.
So it was nice to see someone win something that was based on beauty in an industry where a size 6 is asking for someone to tell you that you are too fat. It was a reminder that though I may not be happy with how I look, I really am "average". And hopefully someday soon I can be happy with that.
Prior to getting pregnant with Jazmine was really the first time I was finally comfortable with my body. But the sad part is I barely broke the scales at 100 lbs. Post pregnancy body was another hurdle to overcome, but just about the time I got pregnant with Isaac I was starting to get comfortable with how I looked again. Now, the post Isaac pregnancy body I am so disgusted with I can barely look in the mirror long enough to straighten my hair or put makeup on for church.
So it was nice to see someone win something that was based on beauty in an industry where a size 6 is asking for someone to tell you that you are too fat. It was a reminder that though I may not be happy with how I look, I really am "average". And hopefully someday soon I can be happy with that.
5 minutes is all I'm allowed
Yesterday I gave myself 5 minutes to cry, freak out, and have a panic attack. Then that was it. Time to get to figuring things out. With the state of the economy (have I said Thank You, President Bush??) everyone is tightening down on money. Well, Lenny is a construction electrician, and there is no new construction going on around here right now. No money for it. Buildings that are in the middle of being built are just sitting there and I haven't seen workers there in over 2 months. Three people from his company on his current job site have already been laid off this week. If we make it through tomorrow without a slip, we know we have at least one more week. I have put it into God's hands. However, I have also taken it into my own hands because that is what I do.
I emailed an old contact from back in the day, filled him in on what is going on, and all I have to do is say the word and I could start work tomorrow. I told him that I will only need work if Lenny gets laid off, and he said no problem. Whatever I need. Whenever I need it. It's nice to know that I was such a valued worker that even 5 years after leaving the company I can still get the all star treatment. Now lets just hope I don't have to go back, and when I start working it will be on my terms and because I want to!!
I emailed an old contact from back in the day, filled him in on what is going on, and all I have to do is say the word and I could start work tomorrow. I told him that I will only need work if Lenny gets laid off, and he said no problem. Whatever I need. Whenever I need it. It's nice to know that I was such a valued worker that even 5 years after leaving the company I can still get the all star treatment. Now lets just hope I don't have to go back, and when I start working it will be on my terms and because I want to!!
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